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Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004
6:55 pm	This country has gone to hell!!! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 11th, 2004
12:30 am	uugh i hate feeling this way. everything has turned into such a disapointment. i really need a change. something, anything. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 25th, 2004
11:24 pm	wowza This has been one crazy week. It started off way shitty but it turned out to be a really great week. I had a lot of fun and meet some really great people. Some kids came over for my birthday on friday. I had a really nice time. Nothing got broken and no police so that is all i could ask for. On saturday me sue, linzy and ashley went to lansing to see Jims band play. It was a lot of fun. I think sue and linzy had a little more fun than i did though. haha I <3 you guys. we picked up abby from state. she is a really fun girl i wish she would visit ashley more though because she barley ever comes home on the weekends. and wooo today is my birthday i am 19 who wants to go to canada??? my mom took me out for dinner. it was nice to see her paula and my brother. i barley ever see them since i moved out. matt met me at my apt after that. it was nice. we hung out like old times i'm really glad that kid is one of my good friends. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 18th, 2004
3:45 pm	ATTENTION I am having people over on Friday Jan 23 for some drunken birthday fun. Let me know if you are comming and I will supply you with some directions. This cant be anything huge. My apt is small and my neighabors are like 80. just a get together of my favorite people. hope to see you (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
12:15 am	uugh i hate what has happened to me. I never uesd to feel this way. I want to go back to the way I was. I need go get my life back together. Everything feel apart. I was left with nothing and the life that i was able to put back together is not the same. I need to get my shit straight. I want to be my happy carefree self. I never uest to sleep alot, now that is all i want to do. The biggest reason for my downfall is gone but i can't seem to get over it. It ruined me. Now i am a scared, nieve girl. I can't beleive people anymore I don't let my self. I am scared of people. All i can think is that they are trying to hurt me. Some how feel i am just getting screwed over. I need to trust my self before I can trust others. If i can get back some of the feeling I used to have maybe it wouldnt matter if people aren't being completely honest. I would have myself to fall back on. All I know is that i need a self makeover. Current Mood: confused Current Music: the promise ring (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 22nd, 2003
8:29 am	ooooo so tired right now i wish i was a kittie so i could stay home and sleep all day, but no. I am off to another exciting day of david pressley cosmetology school. After i get to go christmas shopping with the lovely ashley. hopefully ? Maybe? i will run into a certain boy so i can get some hugs (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 16th, 2003
4:53 pm	Yea!!! I am finally on week 13. The last week of classroom. I just have to make up my absent hours and I will be on the floor making all the hussies pretty. I can't wait. I wish it wasn't raining because I need to go out and look for a job. Last time I went to look for a job i got all rained on and cold. Thats how I got all sick. I'm not doing that again. I need on thursday to do a major job hunt. I hope it will be nice that day. Tomorrow will be lots of fun. But this time no bubble tea. <3 Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 14th, 2003
11:22 pm	I feel as though i am just a toy. The kind that when you were a little kid brought you so much joy. You would play with it for hours and hours each day. You would rush home from school to play with it. For a while nothing could compare. After a while it became old. You didn't spend much time playing with it anymore. You would play with it once in a while. Only when you were bored and there was nothing to do. The times you played with it because more and more scarce. You acquired new things to fill your time. The toy was not important anymore. Eventually it ended up in the bottom of the toy box. Everynow and then it would pop up. You would play with it but it never was the same. You had had new toys to take its place. Upgrades with flashing lights and sounds. The old toy could not compare. One day you remembered that old toy. You remembered the day you got it. How much fun you had with it. You look for it but it's gone. You search all over but it is no where to be found. You realize what you had been missing all along. Maybe it will turn up maybe it won't. If you find it Will the joy come back will you remember what you had been missing all along? Current Mood: lost Current Music: moldy peaches- nothing came out (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 13th, 2003
4:32 pm	I have done nothing all day. I don't feel good. I got my new bed today. yeah it is big there is enough room for me and a lovely. I am worried of what is to come. I am scared of loosing my friend. This was suppost to be a month of fun hangouts and sleepovers. I really hope that we can continue to have the best times together. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 25th, 2003
11:07 pm	ooo so much is going on. I have an interview at saks fifth avenue The Red Door Salon on Friday. I hope it works out. I was almost guaranteed the assisting position. I am excited. I really need the job, I really need the money, and I really need the experience. School has been so draining, or at least when I go. I really need to start going every day. I am 40 hours behind. Thats a lot. That is two weeks that I will be held back in the class room before I can go on the clinic floor. I just need to get the class room shit done so I can have fun making the hussies all pretty. wow I have been staying up way too late. I usually go to bed around 3 or 4 am. When I wake up at 7 it is really taking a toll. I am always dragging all day. Not good. I have been having a lot of fun with some really great people. Sue, Ashley, Matt, Mattis. They bring me so many fun times. Fun drunkeness with Sue. She is the bestest girlfriend ever. Crazy late nights with Matt. He is the best boy, he always makes me smile <3 Mattis always gets farted on by cash the kittie, always so funny. Ashley is the best girl ever. Mama. We need to hang out more. Bring on the rolling rock and the hussies. I am so excited to catch up on some sleep. 4 day weekend yea!!! Hopefully many nights of drinking yummy rolling rock. I can't wait. I think I might actually go to bed before 4 today. That will be wonderful. mmmmm Current Mood: busy (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 12th, 2003
7:48 pm	mooooo... i feel like poo. I left school early today to come home to sleep. I needed it staying up till 4 and waking up at 7 just isn't working for me. I am beat. Indiana with sue was lots of fun. What happened after ward was not. Being molested is soooo not cool. Thankfully we got rescued. I am never drinking with thoes kids again. I really need to find a job. I so have not been motivated to find one. I have been having too much fun with sue and ashley. I was thinking about being an elf at the mall, but only if i can wear the pointy shoes. There has been way too much drama lately. Boys are stoopid and so are girl fights. People need to grow up and move on. I hope things turn around soon. I need to get things together. I need to try harder in school and put more time into my friendships. I haven't hung out with my ashley in days. I miss our fun times. I also miss my troy friends. It has been weeks since i have seen them. Things will get better soon. I just need to get motivated and stop being whiny. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 2nd, 2003
9:41 pm	tear tear My doggie is dying. I went over to my moms house for my brother birthday. I got there and to my surprise oscar was there. My dad was out of town so my mom is watching him. I opened the door to his cage thinking he would hop out ready to play but he just sat there. He can't walk anymore. He hurts to stand and he is not doing good. we are going to have to put him to sleep. He was my first ever pet. i have had him since I was 3. It is so sad. I wish he could be a puppy again so we could play and he could come with me in the car.mooooo my puppy ='( Current Mood: depressed (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, November 1st, 2003
4:40 pm	woohoo Last night was awesome. Me and sue got really wasted. It was fun. We mingled with the neighbor boys. Then we left sue house full of people to go party hoppin. Great times. When we returned we all piled into sues bed for some fun. Her dorky friends were singing show tunes. So funny. I woke up at 3:00 to start helping sue move. We are still moving stuff but they left me at her old house to wrap the dished and sweep the carpet. It is about 5:00 now I am still in my halloween costume, I am soooo cool. There is a bunch more stuff to move but we will be done soon enough. After that me and sue are going to find some boys that are super cool and have some fun. There might be a trip to Niagara falls this sunday. I'm not sure, I will see what happens because I really should spend monday looking for a new job. I should probably get back to helping sue move. To wrap up last night= lost of beer, coke and lots of dorky drunk people. It was the best. I heart you sue. Current Mood: busy Current Music: what ever is comming through the walls (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 30th, 2003
7:39 pm	always happens I hate it. This always happens. I am starting to think I am some awful person. Same thing again I am left feeling used, like a dumb ass and not knowing how to feel. I think it is time for me to just give up. I always get in too deep and am the one that is feeling left out. I don't know what to do in this situation. I don't know if I can wait around for the situation to change. I want to but I am feeling drained and not very trusting. I hope I can just forget about past and trust that I am doing what is best. mrg what is a girl to do Current Mood: moooo (Comment on this)
12:18 am	I have been crazy the last two days. Kind of angry kind of emo. But with all the energy I got a lot accomplished. I moved Laura into her room. It has been like 5 months I thought it was about time. No more bedroom furniture in the living room and finally closet space!!! The apartment finally sparkles. I just have to take the millions of trash bags down four flights of stairs to the dumpster. After that the apt will be sparkling like it never sparkled before. The whole bill situations is freaking me out though. I was left with the rent, electricity, cable, and gas bill to pay all by myself. I am not to happy about that. I don't know what I am going to do. I still have to pay for this month of school. o well it will work out somehow. I had a manicuring practical at school on tuesday. My stupid teacher took off like 10 points because i "giggled too much" whatever that wasn't even in the criteria. I think she is just an angry person. Last night was fun. Me and Ashley got really wasted. We had good times with the foaming carpet cleaner. I had no idea it was so entertaining. I hope i get to see him soon. It has been a while since we have hung out. It has been a really crazy week for us both but tomorrow night we might go to a haunted house. I am keeping my fingers crossed. I hope something fun goes down on Halloween. Sue said we could hang out at her place and get really ripped. That would be fun. I hope your kittie feels better. Time for homework the sleep. Current Mood: hopeful (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 25th, 2003
10:49 pm	I feel all mixed up right now. I feel really nervous and un easy. I think one reason for this feeling might be that my new neighbors are crazy. They started fighting and a guy pulled out a gun in front of my apt. He then barricaded himself inside the apartment next to mine with the gun. There were police everywhere and I was scared he would shoot through the wall or something. It was crazy. I hope they get evicted I don't think I can deal with that again. I was trapped in my apt. and it was scary. eerrrrr I am really starting to hate this place. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: cries of the kitties (2 Comments |Comment on this)
12:57 pm	Last night was out of controll. I am left with bruises and blisters. There was also one giant hole in the wall and a broken computer. I'm sorry Sue. (Comment on this)
Friday, October 24th, 2003
11:03 pm	Tonite is going to be fun. Rolling rock awaits me. I have the apartment all to myself for the next 12 days. wootwoot!!! Just me and the kitties. and maybe a boy or two (just one). Awesomeness Current Mood: excited Current Music: phantom planet (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 21st, 2003
11:13 pm	biting my nail....... Today was kind of shxty. I am worried that it is a sign of things to come. It scares me. I have been so happy for the past month and a half. I don't want things to change for the worst. I really hope today was just a fluke. It is half out of my control. I hope you were being honest and that things will only get better. Current Mood: worried Current Music: ladytron (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, October 20th, 2003
7:08 pm	yea!!! movie/ laundry night with ashley ultimate fun hair ball was last night. it was ummmmm interesting. there were guys in ninja pants with body glitter all over. they scared me. I have never seen so many crazy drunk people before. hair stylists really know how to party it up. Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)